Saturday, February 25, 2012

THINK AGAIN...(revised version of "My daily life in pain")

LIFE IS SO FUNNY...JUST WHEN, U THINK U GOT IT ALL FIGURED OUT, THEN WHAM!...A WHOLE NEW SET OF RULES AND REGULATIONS. So...THINK AGAIN.
WHAT PATH DO I CHOSE TO TAKE? DO I TAKE THE ONE LESS TRAVELED OR DO I CHOSE TO FOLLOW OTHERS AND MAKE THE SAME MISTAKES THAT THEY CHOSE TO MAKE?
U CAN ONLY LIVE AND LEARN, IN THE PROCESS OF LIFE. HECK, MOST OF US HAVE LEARNED BY WATCHING OTHERS AND BY SEEING, THEIR ACTIONS OR RE-ACTIONS...WE CHOSE TO FOLLOW THAT BEHAVIOR OR SAY TO OURSELVES, "THAT IS NOT HOW, I WOULD HANDLE THAT SITUATION, BUT CAN U ACTUALLY, KNOW FOR SURE HOW U WILL REACT, IN A SITUATION...IF, U HAVE NEVER ACTUALLY BEEN, IN THAT SITUATION? only u know the answer to that. 

"LIFE IS WHAT U MAKE IT...AND IT IS UR CHOICE, TO MAKE IT THE BEST THAT IT CAN BE. HAVE FAITH, IN URSELF...GIVE THAT FAITH TO OTHERS, LIKE A RAY OF SUNSHINE, FROM GOD." Karen Elmore



                                     GOD IS EVERYWHERE...U CAN'T MISS HIM..:D


 





THIS IS A REVISED POST, THAT I MADE RECENTLY TO SOMEONE ONLINE. WHO, BY THE WAY HAS ALSO, BEEN HAVINING SOME OF THE SAME SYMPTOMS THAT I HAVE.
FOE A LONG TIME, I HAVE FELT THIS WAY. NOW, IT IS FAR WORSE...

SO,  I THOUGHT I WOULD SHARE THIS WITH U GUYS...SO, U CAN GET A BIRD'S EYE VIEW OF MY EVERYDAY LIFE.
I KNOW, IT IS HARD TO UNDERSTAND, FOR SOME OF U, BUT IT SEEMS, THE PEOPLE THAT U WANT TO UNDERSTAND, JUST DON'T GET IT I MEAN, THEY ARE CONSIDERATE AND LOVING, BUT I THINK, THEY ARE JUST TIRED OF HEARING @ IT.
AS I LOOKED THROUGH WHAT I HAD WRITTEN...I WAS REMINDED OF WHAT U GUYS MUST THINK. I KNOW, IT IS HARD TO TAKE IN...I CAN'T FATHOM IT SOMETIMES, MYSELF.
WHAT I AM TRYING TO SAY, IS THAT I MEAN, IT SOUNDS ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE FOR SOMEONE TO ACTUALLY BE GOING THROUGH ALL OF THIS AND HAVING SO MANY SYMPTOMS, BUT EVERYTHING THAT I SAY...IS REAL AND SADLY, IT IS TRUE.
IT IS SICKENING TO ME, JUST TO READ IT, BECAUSE I AM REMINDED OF HOW MY BROKEN LIFE MUST SEEM...TO U.
I DO KNOW, I AM BLESSED.  YES, I FEEL TRULY BLESSED, BECAUSE MY LIFE HAS BEEN PUT INTO PERSPECTIVE, IN A SENSE. I UNDERSTAND HOW it is...THAT I SHOULD LIVE MY LIFE NOW...AND AM MOTIVATED MORE TO DO SO NOW THAT I HAVE A DIAGNOSIS.
I DON'T TAKE A SINGLE DAY FOR GRANTED NOW.:D 
I GIVE ALL THE CREDIT, TO THE LORD AND THANK HIM, FOR GETTING ME TO WHERE I AM NOW...HAPPY ON THE INSIDE..